Review of my website dashboard revealed this post from a couple years ago… I wrote it, but held too much fear and pain in my heart to publish it at that time. I’ve grown since then… but it still may have value to those working through similar processes. Sending love and blessings for your journey…
Scarcity and Abundance – Patterns of Perception and Response
Growing up in a family with a predominate viewpoint of scarcity was certainly a challenge – but also a blessing. My family taught me how to work – how to be industrious and creative in solving problems of daily life. But looking over my mother’s shoulder as she struggled to pay the monthly bills also taught me that money was something always in short supply. I determined early on that if I wanted to have anything in this world, I would need to work for it – and I did so with great strength, courage and enthusiasm. I held the certainty and hope that hard work would bring me things I wanted to have and a certain amount of worldly riches, or at least enough resources for basic support and comfort.
Growing up in a family with a religious heritage was also a challenge – and a blessing. I seemed to come into this world with my own strong sense of the worth of souls and the value of service to others. The religious training I received from being raised as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints has supported my deep sense of spirituality and added depth and richness to all of my life experiences.
But there were also inner conflicts aplenty, which seem to have originated from habitual family patterns of reacting to life challenges from a perspective of fear and scarcity rather than responding from a space of love and abundance.
Therein lies my quest – to honor and appreciate the goodness of my family heritage and to release and let go of old patterns and perceptions that have kept me stuck for years in scarcity and pain.
I cannot tell the whole story of my journey to a life of generosity and abundance in one blog post. But I can share one small episode as an example.
Recently, I became aware that someone I cared about was resentful of us. It appeared that he had the impression that we were “rolling in the dough”, but wouldn’t help him in his financial trials. He had no clue that we were going through the same economic storm as everyone else we knew – and not faring very well.
When I learned of his opinion, I was triggered. My anger flared dramatically. I was immediately offended that he set himself up to judge us as unworthy of affluence. He had no true knowledge of our efforts to grow and expand beyond who we were and try to become “successful”, only to see it all wiped away during the economic downturn, and have to start all over again.
My husband saw how the conversation triggered me. He touched my arm lovingly, and whispered in my ear that the conversation was not meant to hurt either of us, but just to be an opening for improved communication. I grew silent and kept the rest of my thoughts to myself as I realized that the real problem was my emotional flare – something in me was definitely triggered by this conversation.
My thought process:
What is the real reason for this person’s resentment?
Have I actually caused him any harm? No.
It appears that our offense was to work hard to try to overcome scarcity mentality.
We were successful for a while, then seemingly, not.
All our hard work did not “pay off” and bring us “riches” as we had been taught as children that it would…
At least, not for the the long term.
But even then, why would this person be angry if we did achieve “success”?
Isn’t that what we all were encouraged to work toward?
And even deeper than that, why did his opinion even matter?
Why was I triggered emotionally?
Trying to make sense of what was going on inside my own psyche, I turned to The Body Code app and began using my muscle testing skills to discover some deeper answers.
“Is there an underlying reason for this flare of anger?
The Body Code led me to Energies > Post Traumatic > Inflammation
Underlying the inflammation energy were twin causes, 1) an addictive heart energy and 2) an energy of parasitic pathogens.
My intuition kicked in, and I muscle tested further, verifying the thoughts and memories that flooded into my consciousness.
The inflammation and parasitic energy were intertwined, and related to the perception of never-ending scarcity.
My scarcity beliefs began with an addictive heart energy inherited from my mother before I was born. Mother evidently experienced some kind of deprivation and fear while she was carrying me, and that energy was passed on to me at my birth. This distorted belief was then proven “true” by early childhood experiences (ask me some time about “Life Savers vs Tootsie Rolls”), and later childhood experiences of never enough money and not being deserving of receiving or spending money. I also discovered a deeper and darker sub-conscious belief that my very existence was not a blessing to my parents, but instead, that I was perceived as a burden, physically and financially. I believed myself to be a financial parasite to my parents – an “unprofitable servant” so to speak. Hence, my addictive heart energy of feeling desperate for love, my willingness to do anything anyone asked of me even if it was harmful to me, and the underlying belief of being undeserving and worthless. Oh, how I groan as I see how these negative patterns have played out in my life!
Even while I have been successful in many things, these and other inner conflicts have held me back from becoming all I can be. Sigh…
Let me be clear about one thing.
My parents never consciously intended for me to be hurt, or to cause any inner conflicts. I think they wanted me to be rich and happy, and while they taught me how to work, they didn’t truly believe I could ever really achieve anything substantial because I am a girl, and therefore in their world view, incapable of success or wealth building. I think they thought that for me to ever be rich, I would have to “marry money”.
Subsequently, I grew up with a self sabotaging psyche. I worked hard. I tried to work smart. I created a certain level of financial and business success, but not knowing how to manage during the economic meltdown, self-sabotaged myself right out of the abundance I had created. It was a nightmare to actually experience that self-fulfilling prophecy of scarcity.
Is there a real way out of this quandary of inner conflicts, self-defeating behaviors, and feeling like an unwanted vagabond on the face of the earth?
Yes, of course there is.
Everything begins with energy…
The energy of spirit…
The energy of thought…
The energy of emotion…
The energy of response…
The energy of choice…
The energy of action…
The energy of manifestation….
There is much more to share…
“Come along with me, the best is yet to be.”….
How to Unlock Online Riches with Product Launches
My background is as a Nursepreneur – for 20 years I taught caregivers how to provide quality eldercare in community based settings – particularly in Adult Family Homes and Assisted Living Facilities in the States of Washington and Oregon. I also owned and operated my own eldercare facility for ten years.
After I closed my care home in 2011 – I went outside, looked up at the sky, and asked, “Now what?”
“What am I to do now, that I can serve the community, work in a way that matches my abilities, and help my husband support our family?”
I immediately received an intuitive download: “Learn all you can about Holistic Healing, and learn all you can about Internet Marketing.” I was puzzled, because these two worlds appear to be totally opposite…but I knew I had received direct inspiration, so I acted on it.
I searched out those with expertise in both fields, and “line upon line, precept on precept”, I gained working knowledge and some expertise in both areas. Now, I do online marketing consulting work and holistic healing work for myself, my family and a few incredible clients. Holistic Healing practices have moved me from the depths of overload to a new sense of wholeness and fresh energy. My understanding and skills in Internet Marketing have empowered me to practice web development, branding, social media, video interviews, SEO and more. In today’s business world, we all need to know how to present ourselves professionally and reach out to our STAR clients. So now I see why I was directed to learn both Holistic Healing and Internet Marketing.
We thrive in business when we collaborate, share and help one another. So this post about Product Launches is one of a series I’ve titled “Unlock Online Riches”, showcases some of the most valuable Internet Marketing Training I have come across in my studies. In the spirit of full disclosure, just as for other training / products I tell you about, I am an affiliate for Product Launch Formula by Jeff Walker. Being an affiliate means I will be compensated when someone buys the program through my link. Buying through an affiliate does not cost you more – the pricing is the same. Basically, as an affiliate, you are paid (after the sale) for promoting the product. As you discover excellent products and services you like to share, I encourage you to consider becoming an affiliate for them. But please only become an affiliate for products and services you have bought and tested for yourself, so you can vouch for the quality. You don’t want to ruin your own credibility just to make a quick buck.
The reason I chose to share Product Launch Formula, is that when you learn Jeff’s process for launching a product, book, program or business, you are learning valuable skills that you can use again and again. Parts of his training focuses on the specific “how to’s” of the marketing process, and parts of the training focuses on mindset and presentation. He’s been around the Internet Marketing world for years, and his training is excellent. Jeff keeps his program updated, and guides you to present your best self to your market. If you are new to online entrepreneurship this will provide solid training for you to launch your first product online. If you are already in business, and want to to put new life into your programs by launching something new, Product Launch Formula is a great way to reach out, expand your practice, and help you scale up to a new level.
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Living an Expansive Life
I recently went to a live 2 day seminar at the end of a 90 day business mastermind program.
During the program, I was asked, “what do you really want out of life?”
I have pondered that question for a couple years now,
as I accomplished most of the goals I set out for myself when I was young…
and have not known what else I really wanted to pursue.
I have had a good life.
More blessed that many.
I’ve experienced “rich” and “poor”, “healthy” and “ill”, “loved” and “unloved”, and many other states of being.Having released the emotional triggers associated with the negative experiences,
and feeling blessed by the positive experiences, I’m good with all of it…
So the challenge – “what do you really want out of life?” remained a puzzle…
I could say “I want $xx,xxx” monthly to spend on whatever I want.
But my mentor said that was ridiculous. What if I needed $xxx,xxx, or $x,xxx,xxx for an emergency?
Then that lower amount would not satisfy anything at all.Looking around me at the amazingly beautiful surroundings in the hotel on the beach…
I realized that it was not a specific dollar amount that I would want to seek for.
What I really want is “An Expansive Life.”
And to me, and expansive life is the means and ability to go where-ever I would like to go,
when-ever I would like to go, to participate in whatever I would like to participate in,
and to experience whatever I would like to experience,
including to be free to learn and share with anyone I would like to come in contact with.
To me, that’s Expansive Living.
The mastermind seminar ended on Friday.
I enjoyed a beautiful evening outside dining experience with a number of wonderful new friends.
Then Saturday morning, I had several hours to spare before I needed to head to the airport.
I slept in until I woke refreshed,
Dressed simply and went out onto the walkway leading to the beach.
The weathered wood handrail ended with a couple steps down to the sand…
And I paused.
Energetic muscle testing before I left for the trip had told me that I did not need to bring my walking sticks.
My husband was not with me to lend me his hand.
I looked at the deepness of the sand mounds and “knew” that my feet would flounder in the shifting depths….
I leaned against the end of the railing…
Gazing at the ocean just 50 yards away.
Would it be okay to just stand there and look?
Would it be okay to not actually go to the water?
I could be at peace with that.
I took a few snapshots… and breathed in deeply.
The beach lounge chairs obstructed the expansiveness of the ocean…
But it was okay.
I could smell the salty air and feel the ocean breezes.
No need to go down on the sand…
because if I did, based on past experience,
chances are that I would soon be floundering around in on my knees…
And then I remembered my new desire…
To live an expansive life.
I was standing on the sidelines leaning safely on the railing.
Is that expansive?
No. Suddenly, I wanted to step out of my comfort zone…
There had to be a way.
But how could I get to the ocean?
I may have to crawl.
People would see me on my hands and knees.
It would be embarrassing.
But would that matter?
They don’t know me and I don’t know them.
People are just people.
My self limiting beliefs and physical limitations don’t affect them at all…
So why should I care about being embarrassed?
and there, off to the left,
I saw the most beautiful thing leaning against the towel stand.
I edged my way over and took hold of it…
And suddenly empowered…
Out onto the sand I went… walking upright.
Expanding my conception of what I thought I was capable of.
The sand was warm under my feet.
I made it to a beach lounge chair,
sat down and took some photos…
called my husband a continent away…
and told him of my adventures…
out where it wasn’t “safe”.
He laughed with me.
I stood again and made my way to the water…
walking ankle deep in the foam…
letting the waves rush over my feet…
I found that when standing still,
the receding water pulled the sand out from under me…
As long as I was walking…
Step by step…
Supported by the walking stick,
And enjoy the experience.
Yes. An expansive life… that’s what I want…
Oh wait… I am already living expansively…
I’m here, walking on the sand in Palm Beach.
Thank you, thank you, thank you….
I received four different “get up and go forward” messages via social media on the same day.
- “You survived what you thought would kill you, now straighten your crown and move forward like the queen you are.”
- “Financial success, or any other kind of success, does not require hard work. It does require alignment of thought. … When you learn to direct your own thoughts, you will discover the true leverage of Energy alignment.”
- “…will the next 4 years pass by regardless of the choices you make today? Yes… then go do something that will take care of you without having to depend on someone else.”
- “Can’t decide on which path to take? Take path A!! Either it will work, or you will find out it doesn’t. In which case, you can then take path B.”