Black Wolf, Dark Horse, Sleeping Girl

Black Wolf, Dark Horse, Sleeping Girl

Black Wolf, Dark Horse, Sleeping Girl

I awoke really early this morning – 4 am. My husband is working till after midnight tonight at a special event… so I’m doing whatever I want during this day alone today. I studied this morning – another of the 67 steps, then researched the YMCA swim times to see if joining would work with how I want to schedule my life – turns out free swim is early morning or late night… bad timing for me.

I needed to get out of the house– so I went to the grocery store just to walk around a bit and pick up a few small items. On the way I pondered this morning’s training about creating a consulting business using just a computer, a phone, a landing page, a thank you page with a video, a survey (which qualifies the client) and an appointment calendar for intake phone calls. They said the system works well in any niche, so I contemplate my options.

I already have the capability of creating that marketing funnel with the software I have at hand… it’s simply a matter of choosing the right niche, identifying my skills and what the market wants and create an attractive offer and a targeted advertising campaign. I need to muster up the focus to BEGIN and FOLLOW THROUGH. For that, I need to create a multifaceted plan for how to create meaningful and lasting success.

First… becoming clear on what I have to offer:
I have 3 main areas of expertise – holistic healing, internet marketing and eldercare… and people come to me asking for help going deeper with their own healing work, for mentorship with AFH startup, and for help creating a blog so they can have a voice. I continually get requests in all three, and yes, a few sales.

But what do I really want to focus on?  What is in my heart to do in this next phase of my life since I closed my care home? This wavering of clarity, associated with an underlying feeling of loss and unworthiness has kept me stuck and spinning in study mode for the last few years.  My recent path has been one of learning to energetically let go of scarcity and step into health and prosperity by raising my conscious awareness and aligning with a higher level of functioning.

I came back home and studied some more.
I’m still wondering what I want to do with my days, but this aloneness is fine, even restorative. But I feel that I am ready to reach out and meet people in this new community I live in. We’ll be here for 5 years while my husband finishes out his years of work before retirement. I have the blessing and the freedom to focus on anything I want. I am appreciative of the peace and quiet and REST… but I know I am capable of more.

My online search failed to produce volunteer opportunities that felt right. I looked for nursing jobs, thinking I might enjoy working part time. I found several daytime RN case management jobs that may be a good fit, paying $80-$100 K / annually, but they are full-time. Initially, my muscle testing said NO. I continue to ponder. What would God have me do?

At this point in my life, to create a sense of a life well-lived, I need to be contributing in a meaningful, generous way, not from fear or lack or scarcity, but for the joy of experiencing the beauty of learning, giving, feeling alive and sharing the light as it is given to me… and yes, for the feeling of receiving respectful compensation.

I studied until I fell asleep on the sofa…
Late afternoon naps are tough to wake up from… and I dreamed.

I dreamed that I was sitting on a couch type bed in some kind of open sided dugout shelter that had just a partial roof and a small sink. I looked out over the grassy knoll and saw a black wolf staring at me. Our eyes locked, then he looked behind him to draw my gaze to a dark horse carrying a heavily wrapped burden strapped to his back. The horse appeared exhausted, “on his last legs”, and trusting in the black wolf to lead him to safety. I have “known” this dark horse forever. When he recognized me, the horse came right down into the dugout and actually laid down, positioning his bound bundle on the bed… and rolling over right on top of me with his legs in the air. Somehow I managed to slide out from under him in the gaps between his flank and the corner of the armrest… and noticed the form of an emaciated girl strapped and now trapped and nearly suffocating under the horse. I was able to unlatch the wide leather strap and the horse slid away from her onto the floor in a coma of exhaustion. I turned to the girl. Nearly incoherent, but now suddenly relieved of the suffocating pressure and weight, she hurriedly stripped off the dirty ragged scraps of clothing from her starving frame and curled naked into a fetal position, burying her face into the softness of the bed, whispering the word, “sleep”. I felt compelled to care and comfort this vagabond soul, and managed to get her arms into the sleeves of a large cotton flannel shirt, it’s plaid softness covering her nakedness and hiding the dark and dirty sores on her shoulder blades, evidence of lengthy privation. “Sleep” she murmured again, burrowing her face in the bed. I fetched a small cup of water and turned her face. “Here, you need this. Drink”… she roused enough for a few sips, curled up and fell asleep again… deeply this time.

The dream faded, then shifted.
Now I find myself dreaming about dreaming and being unable to wake up. I dream that my husband finds me asleep on the sofa. I reach out to him but I am yet unable to open my eyes. Knowing that if I sleep too long in the afternoon, I will have a wakeful night, so he takes my hand and pulls me up, embracing and steadying me protectively as my own energy awakens.
But I know this is still a dream, and I drift away deeply again.

Upon awakening from this late afternoon nap, I am in a state of knowing. I know that I want to contribute in a greater way. And I know that God is allowing me to CHOOSE. I don’t have to wait for permission or direction to choose what I want to do or where I want to create. Enough healing has occurred that I am strong on the inside again. I feel whole. My physical body still shows residual effects of former lack, but I am inspired and feel sufficiently aligned to know that God trusts me to do whatever good in the world I choose to do. On the inside, I feel I am in a state of capability, energy and grace, which gives me the power and permission to make my own choices.

I can continue to live very quietly and very small in my current situation, resting in the comfort of this concise, cozy and protected existence. I appreciate this time of quiet. It gives me the opportunity to rest and fill my cup… to study, to breathe, to feel comforted, supported and to experience some relief.
OR I can choose to grow and contribute in a new way.

We now have enough stable economic systems in place that I need no longer fear starvation. I no longer feel like a vagabond upon the earth.  I know I am okay, even if I make no further effort to create additional income. I have no more need to struggle for my daily bread, just the simple responsibility to manage our resources well.

For the first time since I was a child, I have time freedom. It feels delicious. I do as I please each day… chunking my time to attend to the business of living as well as my studies, but with less stress than I’ve had in years. Currently, I am learning from the 67 Steps to Success… a condensed compilation of wisdom from peak performers from all over the world throughout the ages.

“Life hacking” – is what I call these condensed pearls of wisdom for effective living. I’m using this as a mentoring process to help me integrate all I have been learning and to empower my transition into to a new state of clarity and focus. I ask myself, “What is it that I can create in my life now, that will allow me to contribute meaningfully, and in a manner I find soul satisfying?”

An RN case management job?
A holistic consulting/coaching business?
Authoring another novel?
Complete my SoulTalk book?
Eldercare AFH startup coaching?
Local business marketing?

Opportunities abound, but I have yet to focus and engage fully in one massive course of action.
No worries. The message came clearly today in my dreams…

“Your focus will come soon enough, dear sweet sleeping girl. The knowing you seek will emerge when you are fully conscious and awake. For now, enjoy the sweet peace and freedom of solitude as you rest.”

The meaning of the spirit animal totems in my dream:

Black Wolf Totem

“Wolf is reminding us that although we see ourselves as civilized creatures – we are still animals with our own wild spirit.  He is here to teach us about our inner selves and to discover our own power and stamina.”

“Learn to balance the responsibility of family needs without losing your identity.  Use wolf medicine to develop strength and confidence in your decisions.” – Wolf

Dark Horse Totem

“If horse has crossed your path, know that you have the power to change anything and everything you choose in your life.  Understand that the wild freedom of the horse can be harnessed and used for your own benefit and for those around you.  This understanding comes only when man and beast enter a silent contract acknowledging mutual respect and awareness of responsibility to each other. Alternatively you are being asked to understand that true power is wisdom found in remembering your journey as a whole.  Compassion, caring, teaching, loving and sharing your gifts, talents and abilities are the gateways to power. You are also reminded that all pathways have equal validity.  Understanding this will give you insight into the power and the glory of a unified famiDark Horse Spirit Animally and humanity.  Understand that every human being must follow a pathway to empowerment before galloping upon the wings of destiny.”

“Believe in your freedom to make your own choices. You are never forced to do anything. The choice is always yours.” – Horse

“Dark Horse Meaning: a candidate or competitor about whom little is known, but who unexpectedly wins.”

Best Candidates for President

Best Candidates for President

Choosing of the Best Candidates for President 

The question of who is the best candidate for president is a hot topic.  I usually avoid political posts completely, because some who say they love “discussing” politics simply attack any expressed opinion that differs from their own.  Instead of adding to the controversy, I prefer to share encouraging, uplifting thoughts.

I did, however, share this post these words describe the positive effect we can have when we courageously and consciously “choose the right”… meaning, when we choose attitudes and actions that promote well being and happiness for all of mankind.

“If you vote for the lesser of two evils you are still voting for evil… You should always vote for the best possible candidate, whether they have a chance of winning or not, and then, even if the worst possible candidate wins, the Lord will bless our country more because more people were willing to stand up for what is right.”

One of my Facebook friends responded to this quote: “Respectfully, what if you’re not voting for the ‘lesser of two evils’ but rather for the best candidate available who comes closest to your personal values?” She said she was tired of people bashing a particular candidate.

But how is it possible to identify who may be the best candidates for president?
Will our vote even matter in this world where political corruption is commonplace?  After all, every candidate is human and humans make “mistakes”.  Personal integrity is always in question these days. How is it possible to figure out who is the best candidate for president?

Dr. David R. Hawkins, renowned psychologist, therapist, lecturer and author of the book, “Power vs Force”, states that “any government official who falls below 200 (on the map of human consciousness) won’t solve problems but will create them.”  This can be true in any level of government, not just in the federal Presidential office.

Here’s the gist of my response to my Facebook friend: 
“I think it’s important is to vote according to your highest and best values… to vote FOR something/someone you perceive as GOOD, rather than AGAINST something/someone you perceive as BAD. The difference is in conscious awareness and intent – perhaps on the part of the voter as well as the candidate or cause.

In the book, Power vs Force, author David Hawkins describes the map of human consciousness as identified over a 20 year study with thousands of subjects using kinesiology testing. The level of 200 is where courage and the well-being of others begins. Pride comes in at 175… a powerful energy… but the problem with pride is that it is outward based, and can easily be bumped down into lower levels. The level of 500 is where the happiness of others becomes the true intent. The level of 600 is where the good of mankind and the search for enlightenment become the focus.


Regarding politics, Hawkins has this to say:

“In a social framework, we can certainly choose to refuse passive submission to any political system that falls below the level of 200; we should instead apply our newly developed faculties of examination and correction to it.” (kinesiology and muscle testing) It’s now possible, for instance, to establish clear criteria for selecting holders of public office. Each office requires a specific minimum level of awareness in order to be effective; IN GENERAL, ANY OFFICIAL WHO FALLS BELOW 200 WON’T SOLVE PROBLEMS BUT WILL CREATE THEM.

More Applicable Quotes from David R. Hawkins in Power vs Force: 

“It’s a relative world; everyone acts from his own level of truth and therefore believes that his actions and decisions are ‘right’ – it’s this very ‘rightness’ that makes fanatics so dangerous.”

“The really grave danger to society lies in the silent and invisible ENTRAINMENT that stealthily conquers the psyche.”

“It isn’t the obvious message of the negative input that destroys consciousness, but the energy field that accompanies it.”

Simply put, the collective energy level of those around us affects our energy level – and therefore contribute to our weakness – or strength.  This is why it’s important to choose good friends who help us be our best selves.

“Here, it’s best to heed traditional wisdom that tell us not to fear evil or fight it, but merely avoid it; yet in order to do so, one first has to have the capacity to recognize it.”

“Obscurity is dispelled by augmenting the light of discernment, NOT by attacking the darkness.”
Once your learn muscle testing, then… “Wisdom can ultimately be reduced to the simple process of avoiding what makes you go weak – nothing else is really required.”

Power vs Force is a fascinating book that will raise your own vibrational level (give you a high) simply by reading it.“A ‘high’ is any state of consciousness above one’s customary level of awareness”. I’m an avid reader, known to finish a book in just a few hours.  Power vs Force is what I call a “deep read”… The first time I read it 10 years ago, it stretched my mind so much that it took me a few weeks to get through it, because I needed to “process” what I was learning. I re-read it just this month and this time I breezed through it easily, because my level of awareness has grown exponentially in the past few years of study. Discernment of truth and alignment with higher levels of consciousness is becoming my gift and my blessing. For this I am ever grateful. 

How to Be a Powerful Person and Make Your Vote Count
Regardless of which candidate wins an election, the most effective way to make your vote count is to raise your own personal level of consciousness and become your best self.  Learn muscle testing so you can identify what makes you go weak (below the level of 200) and what makes you go strong (above the level of 200). Consciously choose high values, principles, beliefs, laws, candidates, processes, attitudes, associations, groups, activities and actions.  Pray for divine guidance and assistance in your quest to create in your life “that which is in your highest and best good”.
Then the energy you contribute (your vote) becomes more powerful and purposeful.

David R Hawkins life like a prayerOrthomolecular science reveals the “… simple fact that the energy of a loving thought is enormously more powerful than that of a negative one. Therefore, the traditional solutions of love and prayer have a sound scientific basis.” – David R. Hawkins

Regarding choosing among the best candidates for president?
The combined wisdom of statesman/prophet Ezra Taft Benson, and scientist/teacher Dr. David R. Hawkins is encouraging.  Their words indicate that our intent and our perspective do matter – and that it is far more powerful to vote with positive rather than negative intent!!

Blessings to all – Jo Lyn Cornelsen

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